My loves!
HIIII! I’m again!
I’m going to do every little thing in my energy to maintain this brief & candy. You already know, provided that my final weblog publish was 11,000-ish phrases (you already know like, 1/6 of a e book?!) however that was Atticus’s BIRTH STORY publish so it wanted to be in depth & juicy. That will likely be a monumental one for all of time.
Now it’s the finish of June, formally Most cancers season whaaatt, and I can’t imagine I haven’t written a publish in 5 months. However that’s sort of what right now is about.
This maternity depart has taken me right into a vortex. No like, an actual timeline hop — probably the most quantum of all leaps, and probably the most magical of all occasions. This time has elevated me — as a soul, a mom, an individual, a author, a enterprise proprietor.
I feel one of many final issues we will do in life once we are making a model and dwelling within the midst of it daily is to take a step again. We might do ourselves the best service if we merely allowed ourselves to do this extra typically, and generally even with out rhyme or cause. However we don’t — I do know I don’t at the very least!
After I obtained sick about 5 years in the past I used to be compelled to step again, however even then I managed to be slyly working on a regular basis, below the guise of simply “checking social media” or checking in with my viewers or the age previous “simply doing this actual fast as a result of nobody else goes to.” And that every one served me nicely on the time, however a REAL break was wanted.
So come early December of final 12 months, at a swollen & bursting 9+ months pregnant, I lastly obtained that break.
It has been blissful with Atticus, and I’ve discovered a lot about myself. You guys will hear loads about it within the solo episodes to return on TBB Podcast, which formally relaunches tomorrow!! And past what I’ve discovered about myself as a mother, I discovered loads about my enterprise & the best way I need to method my work and my life from right here ahead.
First I ought to say that the principle aspect of my enterprise & how I make an earnings is thru podcasting. There are a variety of different transferring components to being an influencer & author, however the bulk of my profession itself is in podcasting. However towards the top of final 12 months and even nicely earlier than then if I’m being trustworthy, one thing about the best way that I approached my very own podcast began to make me really feel very MEH.
And by that I imply, I used to be burnt out and over it. Not over the podcasting itself, as a result of the conversations I get to have (whether or not they be solos or with my wonderful friends) are one thing I love to do… however the backend was sporting on me. The negotiations, the times I simply didn’t really feel prefer it, the times my Lyme signs had been raging, the times my mind fog was so dangerous I forgot what I used to be saying in the course of convos with a few of the most profitable individuals on earth, the times I ended up podcasting from mattress and feeling like a complete imposter as a result of who information a top-rated podcast from mattress…
You already know what I imply? So it was REALLY good to step again & take an actual break. Not simply to assemble my footing and my vitality once more, however to start to conceive what it would appear to be to select it again up once more once I was prepared.
I additionally suppose in relation to all issues business-related in life, it is very important ask ourselves generally: do I even need to return to this??? Is that this, one thing I created six entire years in the past, nonetheless serving me? Is it draining & depleting me? Whether it is, do I need to proceed it, however in a brand new means?
SO round mid February once I started to even take into consideration what podcasting would appear to be if/once I was able to return, these are the questions I began to ask myself. At the moment I used to be nonetheless in such a new child cocoon & bubble and actually couldn’t think about leaving Atticus for even an hour, so these had been all hypothetical & future “what ifs” at that time.
As Joe Dispenza says, it was time to contemplate breaking the behavior of being myself, so I began to ask myself what that might appear to be.
After which I revisited a dialog in my thoughts that I had come again to many occasions. What about signing with Expensive Media?
Should you guys don’t know, Expensive Media is a podcasting community that’s on the TOP of the sport — like so far as networks & studios go, it’s at all times the one which has caught my eye and that I’ve saved a watch on. So most of the most unimaginable podcasts are signed with DM, they usually actually know what they’re doing. It has been set aside from day one, particularly as a result of the founder is Michael Bosstick (co-host of The Skinny Confidential Him & Her, aka my favourite podcast and like, one million+ different individuals’s favourite podcast).
When DM first launched I had a dialog with Michael about it, however on the time was actually proud of the best way I used to be doing issues. I had a tremendous manufacturing staff for a few years, every little thing we did was digital, and I felt like I might maintain that well-oiled machine rolling. However over time I saved that dialog in thoughts and at all times felt like, am I doing myself a disservice by not making an attempt one thing new?
In the end one thing about DM is that they’ve attractive studios right here in LA — and after podcasting at my kitchen desk for the final six years, that was beginning to sound actually enjoyable, and actually skilled. Like an actual improve. The up stage my soul was asking for.
To not point out, my staff is small, and now we have at all times accomplished every little thing on our personal. From model offers and invoicing to graphics and visitor reserving & past, it’s actually simply us. This stage in my life started to really feel prefer it referred to as for an up stage in that space, too — one with extra SUPPORT, extra ease, and extra grace.
After which there was one other large query. This can be a actual kicker, you guys, and I’m about to be actually trustworthy with you.
Have I been holding myself smaller than I must be for all these years, as a result of I’ve been sick and I’ve a worry of being as highly effective as I do know I actually am?
As a result of a part of all of this for me is that once I shut my eyes and take into consideration every little thing I’ve created on this world, I do know it’s large. After I launched my podcast six years in the past it was within the high 10 episodes each single week, on a regular basis. Past that (and extra importantly), my listeners are loyal and wonderful and now we have a LOT of enjoyable.
However once I obtained sick I actually misplaced my footing and I misplaced a variety of confidence. I checked out different profitable individuals within the trade and felt like they’ve much more vitality than me, they don’t must make choices primarily based off of whether or not they have Lyme signs raging every day, and possibly — they only work more durable??
These had been all methods of holding myself small.
So changing into a mother, and looking out down at my candy child boy, and understanding in my coronary heart that I can’t wait to indicate him that he can do ANYTHING on this entire total world, and that he’s highly effective, and artistic, and ideal, and vigorous & vitality simply the best way he’s… then that made me take an actual, laborious take a look at myself.
And as all mothers know, you find yourself needing to imagine these items your self if you happen to’re ever prepared to show them to your youngsters. And I do imagine these items about me, I at all times have, I simply sort of misplaced a few of that energy and gusto alongside the best way.
Then I obtained excited, and determined it was time to make these modifications and take these quantum leaps. I’ve taken a variety of leaps in my life, as a result of I do know in my intestine we’re solely caught if we BELIEVE we’re caught. We’re solely small if we LIVE like we’re small. We’re solely caught in loops & patterns if we subconsciously or consciously agree to remain in these patterns.
So, I took the leap. I took a variety of leaps! I reached out to Expensive Media and spent the previous couple of months establishing this partnership and getting every little thing transferred over… six years price of episodes!!! I obtained within the studio and began recording!! I shot NEW COVER ART, mama obtained a sprig tan, obtained my hair and make-up accomplished, and actually began LIVING this 7.0 model of myself that I had been dreaming up for all of those months in my early postpartum cocoon.
And now, tomorrow, TBB Soul on Fire launches with Dear Media! The present will likely be precisely the identical present you’ve at all times identified, however expanded. Extra elevated, extra polished, extra me. It would replicate these expansions I’ve dedicated to and skilled, and it’ll not be me enjoying small anymore.
I’m excited to have new friends on, friends which can be so inspiring to me and positively a handful of individuals I wouldn’t have reached out to to return on if I used to be nonetheless podcasting out of my front room. No shade in any respect to how I did issues earlier than (I really like that model of me so, so, a lot) however that is simply the following section. The subsequent stage. And I’m so right here for it.
Head right here to hearken to the TRAILER that launched last week, simply 2 minutes speaking concerning the deep dive that you could count on with the brand new season & new look of TBB 7.0!!!
SO EXCITED & so grateful to share these milestones with you guys! Within the meantime, I will likely be running a blog extra typically once more. This day without work utilized to all issues — running a blog, podcasting, even writing. I’ve actually simply been dwelling the mother life, and it’s thrilling as a result of I’m prepared to return again full pressure now & I do know what I missed probably the most. Running a blog is excessive on that listing too. 🙂
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