…………may be very gratifying on a blue sky sunny day however my ideas have been worrying . ( Not worrying in a extremely frightened sort-of means, simply in an “I must kind this out” type of means)
When Colin died 4 years in the past I used to be 63 and bear in mind saying to somebody that if I saved properly I’d dwell for an additional 15 or 20 years alone and no matter would I do with myself? It appeared such a daunting prospect.
One other thought got here to me, one thing a buddy, who developed MS a lot too younger and was fairly poorly proper from the beginning, mentioned to me in the beginning of her lengthy battle. She mentioned “it was essential not to surrender and retire too early” – she saved going out and about when ever she was properly sufficient proper to the top of her life.
One of many issues I had written in my diary for final weekend was Open Gardens In Eye, however ultimately I did not go -it did not enchantment sufficient to take me out alone. However that made me take into consideration J. Her husband P. was Col’s boss for a very long time within the Suffolk County Council Bridge Workplace. He was lower than 10 years older than Colin and retired at 60 after which had a mind tumour and died a number of years later. J got here to see us on the smallholding in the future and mentioned she’d been on one of many Open Backyard visits in a village close by and realised that if she did not kind herself out, visiting gardens could be the one pleasure for the subsequent 20 years. So she purchased herself a camper-van and carried on doing the issues that she had executed beforehand when P was alive..
Made me surprise…………….Have I retired too early? Am I mouldering away in my bungalow – going out to issues only for the sake of it? Is my life going to be the identical for the subsequent 15 years? I do not really feel significantly bored and by no means have been, I benefit from the issues I do however ought to there be Extra or One thing Else! ( not a person for positive – could not substitute the one I had!)
Or perhaps it is as a result of I’ve not had a correct vacation for a few years. I’ve at all times mentioned that there isn’t any level happening vacation if you’re retired and dwell alone, as a result of any day could possibly be a vacation, however after all it would not work like that.
Like I mentioned, want to consider this and kind myself out earlier than I get any older!
So…………….this weekend? …………Automobile boot gross sales if the climate is okay and there is a Flower Competition within the Church and an Artwork present within the faculty in a close-by village. I visited it in 2019 and hope to go once more, as a result of I do take pleasure in an artwork present.
Then perhaps I am going to do one thing very stunning!? however what?
Again on Monday – God Prepared
Sue
